Just a brief clip from my journal, dated 12-21-05:
I awoke sometime during the night when there were no shadows, because the night was all shadow. Wrapped up in shadow I lay there till I nearly burst from its exquisite softness. My hand reached out and touched the muffled blackness, pushed through it and came back to me to lie limply on my pillow beside my head. My eyes ached looking into it, so perfectly deep and infinite in its caress. For a moment I thought perhaps I had died.